almost 34 weeks!!

This has been a ridiculous emotional rollercoaster of a fortnight.  (I've always wanted to work that in somewhere).  I don't know what it IS about February, but it just doesn't seem to be our month...

February 5 - 1st anniversary of losing Jonah
February 10 - 1st anniversary of losing Noah
February 11 - Keith's grandpa passed away, flew out of state for his funeral
February 11 - a family member experienced a miscarriage
February 16 - my great grandmother passed away, leaving tomorrow out of state for funeral

Can it just be March yet?  It will be like a new leaf.  Isaac is still moving around like crazy - on his same routine every day - and we will finally have another ultrasound in a couple of weeks!  I'm exhausted most of the time, but have been running on adrenaline this past week.  I still have heartburn daily, nausea most of the day, and I'm still not ready for his arrival!  Next week a dear friend is coming over to help me nest in the nursery, so after that I'm sure I'll feel a TON better.  I just have to get through THIS week.  :(

EDIT: Isaac ended up being born in February, also, to remind us that things are not ALWAYS bad and there's no such thing as bad luck OR superstition.

32 weeks!!!!!!

I cannot believe we've made it this far!!!!!  I had a BABY SHOWER last weekend, we have a bassinet in our room, we bought a diaper bag and a changing pad for the dresser.  Keith did a huge load of baby laundry, the little t-shirts and Onesies are stacked up ready to be organized...  I still feel like all this preparation is for someone else's baby.  That sounds insane, but I still feel like we're just pretending about some hypothetical baby that we're preparing for in 5 more years, like when we're "old enough" to take care of another human.  I mean, 1 month before my 30th birthday is definitely too young to have a child!  Riiiiiiiight...

A woman in my OB's office (1,000 miles away from Chicago and Dr. Haney) was talking to her/my OB about possibly getting the TAC.  Since I'm currently the first and only TAC patient in her office, she hooked us up!  It's good to know the word is spreading about the TAC and it's success.  So exciting!

I really should get on packing a bag and pre-registering and such.  I'm just so tired...

PS - WHAT happened to January?  Seriously!  That month just came and went w/o me even registering it. 

45 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Isaac Nolan will be here in 45 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!